I have shared before how the Lord often uses things in my daily life to speak to me. He has done so this week so loudly that it has knocked me flat on my face at His feet. I have felt my control over everything being pulled away from me as I have slowly allowed the Lord to carry my hearts desires. I have felt peace, as more is given.
As I was doing a devotional from my wonderful book, 10-Minute Time Outs for Moms by Grace Fox, this week I was humbled. I had just prayed for God to help me give Him the desires of my heart and praying for peace and understanding as I wait for His plan to unfold, rather than trying to take control. The devotion that day was titled the Script Writer. (On a side note, I do not always take time for this daily so some days I do more than one, there is no rhyme or reason to when I do one from this book). Grace pointed out that God writes our life's script. Although we don't always agree and wonder if He has taken a break and picked up Starbucks and a good book and forgotten us. That is NOT the case. I will just share what she wrote next, as I can not do it justice:
"Some days we feel like grabbing the pen from His almighty hand and editing out the parts we don't like. But as we relinquish control, we find peace and joy in Him rather than in circumstances. We discover His wisdom, patience, love, faithfulness, and strength. As we grow in our knowledge of God and obey His word, our faith blossoms. Our negative or critical thought patterns change to thanksgiving and praise. We begin to see our life's script in light of eternity, from God's perspective."
Wow! God is so sneaky! He has been teaching me these things for some time now and right when I am at my breaking point, He gently reminds me of these tools and pushes me forward.
If that wasn't enough, while I was reaching this point of enlightenment, the song Surrender by Barlow Girl came on. I had changed/added music to my playlist on my blog (at the bottom) just a few days earlier. I had never heard the song before and listened to only a few lines before adding it and reminding myself to really listen to it later. It also came on while I was writing this post. Coincidence? I think NOT! The music is set to random so that each time my blog is opened it will start at a new song. If you aren't familiar with this song, scroll down to the bottom of the page and select it. I truly listened to this beautiful song with tear stained cheeks and blurry vision. Here are the lyrics if you are interested.
I have so much to learn and am trying, as hard as I can, to patiently wait on the Lord. I know He is the great author of my life. I know He has a plan for me that is greater than anything I can imagine. Is it what I would have written for myself? Probably not. Is that ok. Yes! Will my days of waiting be filled with days of tears and days of smiles. Probably. I feel so blessed to know the Lord and have Him by my side. I will Praise Him for my trials and Praise Him for this time, and wait as I surrender to Him.